MIA-ing.

those who's close w me , will knw how to contact me [:

samuel , you knw how to.

i'm getting confused.

samuel , i'm sorry.

take good care of your sprained leg & your flu alrights.

ily.

i don't see th need of saving this anymore.

i'm so tired.

& MY FRINGE IS GROWINGGGGG~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ { LOL }

i dreamt bout eric. wth. i can't really remember though. but i'm sure tht i did dreamt abt him then i woke up -.- i got a lil impression of it { i shall not say okeh -.- } i just hope it doesn't happen , cause its.......... just............. i don't want laa -.- no reasons though :X i feel so suay -.- my fringe is growing BUT my ulcer's growing even faster =.= its biggggg & super painful la. Saiful's gonna be so happy today can =.= damn it. i'm gonna go get dressed for school~ GOODBYE! :D

& i'm touched by th 'yes' you gave when i asked you tht question , boy.
you're th sweetest to me laaa.
i'll feed you it next time! :D
AHAHAHA! i'm evil meanie.
you shed tht lil tear for me & it meant everything tht i need to know.

thanks , you're th nicest.
have a good rest & sleep tight.
ily , my dear boy.

2ooth post ! :D

& you never fail to make my night shine.

woke up , msg-ed eric & went to prepare. after preparing , eric replied & said tht he just woke up -.- went t watch tv while mummy nag bout my exams -.- went down to wait for eric. he msged & said tht he got lost when he's behind me turning rounds & rounds -.- he came over , talked & stuffs. went for a drink , thanks for th treat [: then he sent me home. put on makeup & left for cousin's house -.- keep kena say there. like wth laaa =.= sent mummy to thepines & went over to near f1 area to listen to th noise ;x i got scared okehhh ): daddy keep laughing at me getting scared. wth ): came home , showered & went to get a drink then home & went out t have icecream & strolled home. ahaha. reached home , finished th icecream & talked to andrew then samuel.

tht cute lil boy's hanged up there has made me smile & cry today :D

boy , i love you. :D

TAG REPLIES.

BRENDA: good luck for eoy! :D

( you too alrights :D )

Grace: siao zhar bo ! I saw my name (: hey, what roar?!?! you ! oh and anw, happy revising for geog ! i doubt you will (:

( i'm revising okehhhh! don't anyhow saysay ! ): you're a stupid lion! )

stzf: u dont want to slp nw i ehem u hor!

( i don't wanna sleep you also cannot do anything :P i don't wanna let you ehem me ): you go & get some rest alrights :D you stupid sickling ._. )

& will you even notice me?

I'm getting real fucked up. arghs. super stressed up. daddy scolded me for what? for studying downstairs just now -.- like what fucking wrong have i did -.-" damn it. i'm fucking pissed off now. to think back , had kaiyi's birthday celebration today. she recieved presentS. & to come to think of mine , SOOOO many fucking presents tht you guys promised , disappeared. two claimed pok-ed , one claimed don't know what to buy . fucking fuckedup for a moment. next time , you guys don't wanna give just don't give me hopes alrights. damnit. & youyouyou. stop making me pin high hopes & crash it just like tht. & come on la , for a present , its th thought which matters right. zzz. so stop giving me stupid excuses.

i'm so pissed. arghs. i'm studying alr yet daddy says tht i'm not -.-" okay , i shall cheer up.

i'm gonna meet eric for breakfast later ._. [ I DON'T KNOW WHAT TIME THOUGH! & I DON'T KNOW WHERE ! & worse , i doubt i can wake up. ._. LOLS. ]

you don't knw how disappointed i get everytime you kept tht empty promise ongoing.

will you just... arghs. forget it.

& do you even care?

Samuel , come back will you? I'm sorry but i'm seriously... haiii. ): i really don't know what to say. but just.. come back will you? i knw i can't sleep now. come back please? i'm sorry ): i miss you ): we've always end our conversations w a quarrel. i love you i really do.

english paper's tomorrow. arghs. i still haven't memorise th good phrases & stuffs. arghs.

nobody's there tonight to make me tired. [ as in physically. arghs. ] hai. i'm going to bed bahs. goodnight.

& you don't know how much i cherish th time tht allows me to talk to you.

you don't know how much i wish you'll call me for just one night.

you don't know how sad i can get when you break your promises.

when will you even read this part ?

you said you'll read my blog today but i doubt you can even rmb what you said to me now.

& you'll never knw how much i'm missing you.

i can't sleep. arghs. sick & dead.

i wonder if nadia will allow us to do our revision while having homec. then i'll get my chance to sleep i suppose ._. i really can't take it anymore. visions are getting blur-ified. & its freaking hard for me to concentrate at a thing for long. & guess what , my weak nose is back. damn. i guess , i've ought to survive my dumb nose during th papers. it's gonna be so noisy la. & i'll tend to close my eyes when i do things w/o using my eyes ._. cause it's seriously painful.

i doubt i'll be studying tomorrow. i'm tired. getting this real fucked up feeling. ain't feeling good. all tensed up & stuffs , arghs. goodnight. i'll enjoy my night crying. arghs. all moodless mindset.
thurs' gonna be th first paper. hais. i'm sooooo tired. arghs.

i'll be coming home straight after lunch then i'll get to sleep for at least a while alrights! i guess , i shall find time to sleep in sch now. ._________. tired ahhhhhhhh. goodbye. i'm forcing myself to bed.

& stupid ryan , read thiszxzxz! you said you'll call me & , you just told me tht your world's spinning so not calling me. you dabianzxzxzxz! T_T scam me againzxzxz. ):

& stzf , i miss you.

& there's so much i wanna say , but yet i find no one.

i can't study alr. i need my sleeping time back. i tend to sleep at 1plus & wake up at 5. i woke up w red eyes today & i realise , i'm not having enough sleep to concentrate in class. so i'll tend to yawn yawn & yawn. i'm gonna get my sleep back & i'll continue to study. i'm done w my revision for chap 5 , 8 & 9 for geog. i'm giving history up. so.. just a lil more & i'll be done w my revision then i'll probably use th remaining time to actually do a lil of history. arghs. i'm so tired. anybody's gonna pei me to study today? somewhere quiet but yet not tht quiet please. i'll be forcing myself to sleep at 10 today. i can't make it anymore. my eyes are hurting terribly. arghs.

& i'm so sick of love songs.

Oh well , some people nagged tht my page became laggy ): so i shall type in longgg paragraphs. I realised its been so long last since i typed this way ): damn saddening. cause i'll tend to -ENTER- once th sentence is finished. arghs. Xin ku manzxzxz. My lunch's home! :D Byeee! After lunch , i'm gonna mug againszxzxz! Arghs ):

/EDITED.
In a guy's head , when they say , I'm not ready for relationship , they simply meant i'm not tht into you. are you like tht toos?
Mulala , i'm bored. Stucked at home during weekends. LOLS! :D

I'm not gonna be so active anymore { online wise }
I've started to mug. { tht explains why.
Arghhhhhhs.
I started of w Geog today -.-
Nothing's getting in , RAWR!
[ okok , i totally ignored history -.- thinking of it makes me wanna sleep -.- ]
I'll be mugging w Wayne next week.
{ BETTER DON'T PULL ME TO SOMEWHERE ELSE -.- }
Waiting for th pro to teach me how t get 179 cm3 when i got 180cm3 -.-"
Ahhhhhhhhh.
Time for Geog again.
He hasn't online for two days thanks to ANDREWLIMJIAHAO. RAWR.
& Channel 5 said , don't use canon to kill th mosquitoes .__________.
OKEEEEEEEEEH.
GOODNIGHT! TIME TO STUDEHHHH!

& HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO HUIXIA

& S.T.U.D.Y. !

asdjhasjkdhiownedldjioas
{ its on random cause i seriously don't knw what t say.
School's boring.
Kok's always making me wait for her & we'll tend to stare into outerspace ._.
& i'll either fall asleep or start doodle-ing.
School's seriously boring.
arghs.
I'm going to school soon.
I'm w headache. arghs.
Meeting Suwanie tonight.
MUAHAHAHAHA.
Love me baby ~ :D

ikjaskliloveyoudjsidlas

i'm sorry , i was thinking about you ):

& come home soon , stupid monkeh.

i miss you.

& finally you got your ways to contact meeeee! :D

But you didn't wanna tell me your wound got infected & got hospitalised.

i'm soooooo gonna nag you alreadyszxzxzxzxz.

come online tonight alrights x]

i'm speechless whenever i knw things & i asked you YET you tell me a whole new different thing from what andrew says.
what can i do ?
you don't wanna let me know , then fine , i won't ask anymore.
i believe , andrew knws me more than you do.
even when i need you , i got NO ways to contact you.
everytime tht i cried , who's there? Andrew Lim Jia Hao & Jack .
everytime tht i'm happy , who's there? Andrew Lim Jia Hao & girls .
everytime tht i miss you , who's there? Andrew Lim Jia Hao & etc.
Where are you?
Boy , tell me where are you?
you said you'll be there whenever i need you.
WHERE ARE YOU.
now you have huixia , you no longer spam me like how you used to whenever i'm asleep.
i knw she's slowly winning you back AGAIN.
i don't need to say anything but thts th truth.
i don't ask for you.
all i ask is for you to care.
& if you cared , you would be reading my blogposts now & then.
BUT. you didn't.
You've changed to someone who seems to be making me cry every now & then.
no more smiles , no more laughters but more & more tears.
i don't see th point of talking to you anymore though.

i'm gonna stop posting for quite awhile.

i'm tired.

all my posts are abt him & i'm sick & tired of it.

wait till i'm much more happier then i'll post again.

for now , all th best :D

*mia-ing from blog [:

& something random tht i told suwanietan x.x

i want a boyf who helps me to carry my bag & DOESN'T PLUCKS MY BRA ):

{ reason being : suwanie doesn't help me t carry my bag & she plucks my bra ): }

thts it!

stomach cramps period _l_

RAWR! hate being a girl ):

toodles*!

i'm lazy to update , to reply tags & to even visit my blog x.x
God , i'm getting lazier & lazier =.=
Later going w DawnieTan to poooooooooooooooooooool :D
Daddy bought me 4 vcds to stick my ass at home! :D
Watching th second one halfway alr.
i'm so boredzxzxz.
Life's boring ):
arghs.
Time t go run arnd Sg -.-

i knw ,

by th time tht you don't online as often as before ,

you're gonna lose your feelings one day.

& i knw , slowly i'll be falling in love with zy'darling or ryan'dear.

cause they simply just care more than you do.

do you even know ,

everywhere that i am ,

i'm always missing you.

i've cried for infinity times just cause i miss you.

but i don't blame you for not coming online & talking to me.

cause i knw you're always w andrew & co. & you don't even have th time to come online & talk to me any nights.

or maybe , i'm alr asleep by th time.

& i didn't know , a stranger's name can appear on your pm.

if she's a stranger , i won't even exist.

i knw you & her past & you chose to ignore it.

then fine , i don't ask.

cause i knw i don't stand in any position to ask.

i don't have th time & energy to stay up late already.

eoy's coming , i'm gonna spend time studying & relaxing.

i'm sorry if i no longer have time to talk to you.

take care of yourself alrights & don't fall sick tht easily alr.

should i give up or not?

i don't knw what to do.

How much do you know me?

where are you tonight?

I'm so bored tht i cleared my email & read luna's. :D
Its a personality test though.
Ended up w some results though.
Let me share x]
In life ,
Love , Money , Career , Pride , Family.
Important in order -.-
My personality - Loyal =.="
Partner's - lazy -.-
Enemies - sneaky
Interpretation of sex - AWAKING!? =.=
Life's - relaxing -.-
Friends.. .___.
Never forget - Wayne.
True Friend - ANDREWLIMJIAHAO ?! (wth ;x)
Really love - him*
Twin soul - KAIYI?! -.-
Remember th rest of my life - Jesslinzxz!

thts it!
i'm bored ):
& zhongyuan ,
better get your stupid smelly ass out of th hospital man!

i wanna knw whats wrong w you.

i wanna knw who you are now.

i wanna knw more about you boy.

i wished i knew you so much more better.

when will you understand boy?
why i'm down now is cause of you.
how much i wish you're here now.
you're gone & i don't know what to do anymore.
where's tht guy who used to be there whenever things happen?
Gone.

You've changed.

changed till i've got so speechless.

you don't seem to care anymore.

y0u just left me here.

i miss you boy.

but do you knw even know?

& w/o me asking you to read my posts ,

will you even?

why.

you're th first tht i've loved this much ,

you're th first tht i've sort of 'waited' for.

but do you know?

but do you understand?

& there it goes ,

i cried.

7 Sep 08, 06:51
:O?: Erm the passerby said until like you're damn fat, so i'll assume that 3/4 of your clothes do not fit you cause they are not your size. they're too small for your fat obese body.
( please la , i'm not tht shameless to go out when 3/4 of my clothes don't fit. LOLS. at least i still have shame. unlike you guys w/o names [: )
7 Sep 08, 06:50
:O?: Oh my, i have no comments for this girl. Erm you're photogenic i guess? This is not meant to be a compliment, this is meant to be an insult.
( LOL. thanks ah? if you're sooo kind to be here to insult WHEN you got NO comments for me? LOL. )
7 Sep 08, 02:00
Passerby: real life? HAHA. please, stop your gangster language evenif you're one. CAUSE GANGSTER WAS LIKE SO LAST SUMMER? OUTDATED.
( LOLS. its better than spamming w/o your name. its like soooo LASTLAST WINTER ALR. )
7 Sep 08, 01:59
Passerby: and to the Stzf stop talking like a gangster or what so ever, you're disgracing your parents. humji? who isn't humji? when police come not as if you'll still fight right? you can say yes here.but at
( LOL. nobody needs your comments man. please la , people's language you care so much for what ? LOLS. )
7 Sep 08, 01:53
Passerby: replying your tags. and stop wearing those clothes which you think is fashionable. is just make you look disgusting. HAHA. Dogs, wanna help her? come on man.
( LOL. its my life? none of your business? LOLS. please la , its not like i follow trend yea? disgusting? then don't see la. LOL. in th first place , i didn't even ask you here to comment bout me. brains bodoh. )
7 Sep 08, 01:52
Passerby: and fyi, stop acting to be one ahlian or whatever. by saying what you can call your sch 18 peoples! LAME FATASS. and stop acting cute with your elmo fatty. so now, go create more jokes for me by
( OH PLEASE. LOL. PLEASE LA. If i'm trying to act like one or be like one , i'll be spamming vulgarities here already man. USE YOUR BRAINS PLEASE. LOL. & since when i call my school's 18 ppl ? LOLS. even if i were to act cute w my elmo , your business? LOLS. now i knw why you mind so much , cause you can't even act cute right ? cause you don't even have face? LOL. )
7 Sep 08, 01:48
Passerby: *cover up
7 Sep 08, 01:48
Passerby: HAHA. you can act inside your blog whatever you want. but face the fact girls. this world is not fair, so you will never or ever be accepted. go ahead and be everyone's joke. UGLY!!! haha.
( LOL. mind you man , if i'm ugly , what are you? face-less crap? NOT EVEN A NAME. LOLS. & i've never said tht i'm pretty lehs. )
7 Sep 08, 01:46
Passerby: hahaha. those things that you replied are just trying to over up your fatness and uglyness. anyway for your looks, it us very diff for you to find a job. so i suggest you to go work as ' UGLY BETTY'
( thanks for introducing me a job yea? LOL. come on la , its not like i'm looking for a job lahs. LOLS. & plus , thanks for introducing Ugly Betty yea? at least she's pretty. HAHA. its not like i'm trying to cover up. LOLS. i admitted to everybody la. ask my friends arnd man [: )

LOLS.
i'm done replying x]
i'm going out w mama t get my stuffs then home.
i'll be out w jesslin. :D
goodbye x]

HE'S CRAZY -.-
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ):
AHHHHH.
Should i or should i not ):
HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM,
He won't be coming online tonight i guess.
I just realised ,
he doesn't online on saturday nights -.-
Haiiiiii.
I'll start playing w my new picture editor x]

what's gonna happened if i were to tell you i like you?
will i end up like other girls?
blocked & ignored?
or i'll be a diff case?

5 Sep 08, 19:39
Passerby: and get the facts right, face the reality. YOU ARE FAT AND UGLY. Stop PHOTOSHOP-PING YOUR PICTURES AT FRIENDSTER. Really it's so disgracingful. You're letting down the humanity. :(
( i've never said tht i'm skinny & pretty? COME ON LA. i admit tht i'm fat & ugly. what can you do? & i photoshop my pictures? in th first place , i only photoshopped th words , lighting & border. & probably some stamps? mind you la. you don't even knw what i'm using my photoshop for. LOLS. )
5 Sep 08, 19:38
Passerby: you'll break thier heart you know. you waste their sms and everything cause you're fat haihyah.
( its my business? LOLS. its th fact tht i told them tht i'm fat what. they don't believe ? their business la. LOLS. )
5 Sep 08, 19:38
Passerby: Stop finding boyfriends on cyber.
( sadly , i want to , what can you do? :D its MY life. ain't yours. plus , i'm not despo to eventually FIND boyfriends. & come on la , i'm not as bo liao as you kays. i'm single YET i can live my life well w/o guys & i'm not as no life as you tht you can't even put dwn your name [: hate me , why view my blog thens? & plus , i believe looks doesn't mean everything mind you. )
5 Sep 08, 19:37
Passerby: but please, fat people are not well known. FOR SOME ONLY. example for people who are fat yet want to think that she's pretty and wanna "OUTSHINE/OUTSTAND" in this society IS YOU.
( LOLS? thanks for saying tht i'm well-known [: but still , i'm fat BUT i don't need name-less people like you to come & comment bout me [: )
5 Sep 08, 19:37
Passerby: i hope you'll lose some weight and then gain some confidence. i know your confidence right now is damn low. but i know you're trying to act one sociable.
( LOL. i want to lehs [: but at least i have more confidence than you manzxz [: you're so damn lack-ed of confidence [: i didn't believe manzx. even your OWN name you don't have th guts to put it down. )
5 Sep 08, 19:36
Passerby: why are you so fat? YOU MUST ADMIT IT! why your photo so photogenic? I think the society must have mistaken you as a 'CHIOBU' oh sorry i mean, INTERNET society. D:
( LOL. i'm fat :D i admitted what. since when i said tht i'm not? so whats its th internet society? BUT COME ON. i believe they'll name you as a face-less & name-less fellow mans. )

PLEASE.
ask my friends ,
when didn't i say i'm fat & ugly?
LOLLL.
you're not any better.
i'm waiting for your name mans. :D
don't miss me tht much kays [:

Some girls' getting on my nerves manzxz.
Don't blame me if i scream straight into your face & tell you how much you suck.
LOLS.
& rmb ,
don't come to me when things happened kays.
You got your boyf there [:


They're so not gonna spoil my day.

damn it ):
haiyaaaaaaa~ LOLS.
not planning to go out today.
freaking tired.
homework undone.
arghs~
i'm tired ):
2 more days ,
school's gonna reopen.
BOOOOOOOOO.
need to face tht baozha head on monday =.=
%$@#%@#$@#$@%@

Gonna be so dead when school reopens.
Now i knw why i woke up so early today -.-
Ahhhh ,
nevermind.
I still love kids central more ;x
I'm PURE lazy nw -.-
SO i don't bother to rush yea .___.
Makes no sense manzxzxz.
I'm hungry.
Daddy ain't buying me any lunch.
I cooked mine though x]
super sian at home ahhh.
Whos free later on? :D
OH SHIT.
its thursday & i haven't done a single homework =.=

when th clock strikes twelve ,

cinderella will still be tht ugly girl.

but at least she had a chance w her prince.

just one day & its enough.

andrew's gonna find you today ,

if you do miss me..

let him find you at your house.

daddy's so happy even though his car's boot got banged =.="
he said.. ' zhe ci wo hen xi huan wo de pi gu. ' =.="
which means this time , i love my butt =.="
cause he say this time can take moneh =.=
CRAZY la he =.=
Jesslin ain't awake yet ):
LOLS.
Suddenly..
When i was eating chicken rice for lunch ,
i thought about smth =.=
i thought abt next time chicken rice's chilli also need money laaaaaa.
LOLS! ;x
super retarded laaa -.-

a part of me asking me t forget bout you.
i've removed your msn from my desktop.
cause i knw it hurts whenever i don't see you online anymore.
i miss you like crazy.
seriously.
where'd you go?

where'd you go?
i miss you , boy.

SamuelTohZhiFeng ,
i promised you a secret.
So long ago ,
i gave you a lil hint.
i know , if you don't see me online ,
you'll appear here. { i hope }
Take a look back at th first notepad tht i've typed to you.
Mark th capital letter of every start of th sentence.
e.g. I'm sorry for going off tht early yesterday.
Mark every first letter.
It's a message hidden.
Till tht day tht you find out , i'll promise you tht i'll be good.
But will you just come online?
i miss you , i really do.
& i really really don't love andrew.
he's just.... th one tht knows alot bout me.
& th one tht updates me about you.

7268358649443364 ,

i fell hard on you this time.